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*sigh* couldn’t connect yesterday -_-‘ Im kinda vexed right now to find out some ‘things’ -_-‘ eniwei… juz to update, Yesterdae, Sylvia, edmon’d sis came to Singapore n she’d be my housemate for the next 2 months.. she’s the same girl who published the book ‘heart string’ *refer to hana’s blog* hehe… well, she’d be looking for a job these two months… yoo jia you! ^_^

Hm.. ive got some bad dreams on Sunday night.. itz tat our cpe105 tutor, Maylor leung, asked ME out to write the answers… *GOSH!* how horrible :p eniwei.. turned out that Maylor was quite nice not to pin-point to particular people but asked the whole people in general… *can breathe out liaoo..* :p hm.. wad else? Today’s lab was quite fun.. we played with the IC chipz.. OR, AND, NOR, NAND, n NOT chipz… connected it to these n thatz… wow.. I finished my lab!!! ^_^ but I decided to skip accounting lect… oh come onnnn do I hav to wait till 6 to listen to accounting lect? Itz sumting ive heard b4 from Mr.Nava right?? n also, we can READ the book ourselves… (like I will! :p)… met wihu in the canteen, n when I told him im skipping accounting, he also said he’s gona skip… erhm.. im poisonnnnnn :p hahaha….

*sigh2* thank GOD, HE reminded me to care for others.. to listen to others… maybe not u guys around me, but really some people tat needs attention…. I duno y, suddenly I juz remembered to sms a fren of mine whom I THOUGHT should hav been in better state…, turned out to be that she’s decided to juz hav the last ‘laugh’ by suiciding… Due to my situation, I asked another fren of mine to call her n soothe her… My fren told me tat she was soooooo poor ting.. She was crying when my fren called, n somehow my fren managed to console her, soothe her, n made her feel better… but the problem is not solved yet… however, at least some part of it is quite settled… Tiz is really something im grateful of! Wad if God didn’t remind me tat day? She wld hav juz done it, tinking tat no one cared for her… Consistent attention is also bad for her.. she’d tink tat we CARE for her becoz she’d told us tat shez gona say byebye to the world… -_-‘ for Christ sake girl, keep ur promise to me!!! Promise me tat u wldnt make me scared!!!!! Please?? I dowanna wk up one morning n realized I cant call ur number anymore.. cant see u online anymore.. cant see u during our holidays anymore… wad about our frenship?? Wad about the promise tat we’d live side by side after marriage n decorate our house according to our colours????

*sigh* talk about cogan again… T.T’ shld I 4get him? Its really no point… admiring someone from a distance, without any improvement…. Maybe some will say ‘if u like the person, no matter wad he does, u’d b happy’… I AM happy… juz seeing him there, seeing him talk to others, seeing him smile on something.. listening to him talking in class or even clearing his throat.. *sigh* but really.. am I like some sick person talking about crushes admiration or luv? Eniwei… wad makes me EVEN tinking to 4get him is bcoz, if we’re not meant to be, I dun hv to worry tinking tat one holiday I wldn’t go back for holidays juz bcoz of him… RIGHT? n then again… my mum unconsciously said something like ‘jaaaaangan, ya ci?’ to me when sumone said ‘uda punya co blm?? Pasti orang cinpur yagh?’ unconsciously my mum is also sumhow not really FOR the idea of me going steady with a Singaporean… DUH! Itz preferable to get steady with an Indonesian Chinese… the future is ‘brighter’ as in u dun hav to work super hard to earn THAT sum of money… but yea… hu knows… the ting is, I juz need SIGNNN… wther I shld juz see him… or 4get about him… even tho I 4get him, I dun tink I’d hav tiz kind of feelings v soon….. after all.. tiz is the first TIME I go gaga over a guy n realy think he’s too good to be true… *sigh2* im lk a luvsick lunatic -_-‘

Hm.. this morning, me n Sylvia went to NTU together,… at the bus stop, there’s a familiar face but Im not quite sure hu the guy was…. When I raised my hand to kinda ‘wave’ uncertainly, he responded quite fast, n there’s some recognition in his face… then I asked him ‘u in my class ah?’ then he answered ‘Fe2 lehhh…’ oopz… there goes…. The blur me who cant register people’s face well… *sorry2* hehe… then I asked his name… he’s alex.. n he stayed at 2C! imagine that!! We were v close neighbour.. n we’re still neighbour now! for the whole 1sem I didn’t even know that! N as for this sem, we didn’t really meet each other becoz ive been skipping morning lectures like crazy! :p the funny ting is, he stopped at the bus stop in front NTU.. I stopped at the next bus stop… while waiting at that bus stop, I did my log book n finished it.. hehehe.. n as for the bus, the bus left us 2x! only the 3rd one stopped.. this 3rd bus also SKIPPED that particular bus stop NTU… so I thought, tho im late, there’d be alex who is later than me.. to my biggest surprise, he’s already THERE!!! Haha… so funny.. he juz shrugged when I exclaimed ‘how come u here!’ hehe… there there.. I found a new fren, eh? *sigh* talking about logic design lab, keinget lagi cogan d……. -_-‘

Ughm.. hvnt talked about Marlin yet… stef crashed in to NUS on Mon, n she was wondering why Mike kinda ‘change’ all of a sudden… then she THOUGHT she KNOWS wad happened… when we took lotza pics on housewarming day, there’s one pic tat she took only marlin n mike, while I was taking the whole pics of the NUS under-gradz… :D then..., Mike also found out about the pic of the sms she sent to marlin.. :p oopz…. Haha…. So, situation got worse? He is kinda ‘avoiding’ marlin?