stil on new year..

I sent my dad off this afternoon... n when he boarded the plane, he already smsed me 'see u Sinciah' he meant "See u on CNY"... well2..... i was already having a pessimistic feeling that i wun be going back this cny...

I went home and marlin surprised me with her MOST-UNEXPECTED comment... 'I miss home...' wow... i mean woW... i meant wOW... i meant WOW!!! marlin miss her HOME??!!! cool =p... she even added '2 weeks were not enough...' hehehehehee....

N then... talked to nana on the phone for phone-card consultation bwahaha... n guess wad.. she said tix for cny left with only garuda... darn O_o'!!!

well... LETS GO BACK FOR CHINESE NEW YEAR!! heuheue..

For me... personally, especially after my grand-aunt's death... i tot... 'how many MORE chinese new years... or how many more months /weeks/days would i still have with my granma??' if im in singapore most of the years.... wldnt it be good to be there with her AT LEAST on the happy occassions..? i know im thinking too much and sound too pessimistic... but well..... my dad was commenting that my granma is the only 'one' left from her 'batch' in our family... im quite sure her sis' death has quite an impact on her... well... my point is.. i want to make use of the time as much as i could =]

Even though sometimes... er most of the times... my granma is quite intolerable due to her stubborn-ness..... when u think further.. u'll want to tolerate anything and everything =p....

When i went back in december, i bunked in with my sis, because my bro is occupying my room.. becos his own room is leaking XD XD.. so poor thing.. bwahaha... its quite a silly arrangement.. while my bed is queen sized bed... n my bro ALONE occupies it.. my sis' bed is a little bigger than a single bed (a little smaller than queen size bed)... so we both squeenzed.. not really squeezed though... JUST enough room for the two of us lah..... (if we just lay quietly.. not moving...)

Interesting things happened these 2 weeks....

1. I woke up much earlier.. becoz my sis' room is just next to my parents' room.. so when they wake up.. they'll make alotttt of noise.. n suddenly all dreams abandoned me.... wads the point of sleeping if not dreaming O_O' so i wk up at 7 O_o'

2. Before sleeping, my sis n I would talk almost alot of things... about THE family... (the big family)... about life.. about church, etc... XD i guess it makes us both a little cozier with ourselves..

3. I eliminate 4 'keep-a-distance' relatives.... it really IS more than meets the eyes... I added three person to the list.. even though 1 of the person is a kind one.. sometimes that person really gets on to my nerves.. commenting too much things and too many people..... =.=; the other 2..... lets just forget about them XD

4. 2 weeks is definitely NOT ENOUGH! but its enough to refresh me.. =] especially with fyp, i think i made more progress everyday THERE than here... =.=; maybe its the ambience.. maybe its the people.. maybe its the food.. maybe its the feeling.. maybe its the brain.. maybe its the heart... wadever it is... it helped me quite alot =p keeping my promise to update my supervisor while im on holiday =] that's great =] i hope it helps =] keeping my fingers cross.....

5. I see tat both of my parents are quite poor thing.. unlike marlin's parents who could 'take holidays together', my parents cant leave their business... its always 'u go or i go' kind with them.. my bro n sis even tho they helped out abit in the store, i dun think they have the 'thoughts' of continuing the business... so my parents cant rely on them like how (according to marlin) her parents rely on her siblings, so they can take holidays, etc.... Even like the case when i was in indo, my dad was sick.. but on days where he FEELS he's a little better, he'd go to to work..... even tho there are alot of people in my FAMILY, everyone seems busy with their own stuff =.=;; i began to think that their 'words of sympathy are offered only as required.. and as soon as they have said it out, its done.. nothing else to be done...'

And ditto-ing marln's blog... God is always faithful to me too! He has been gracious these years and would continue to be gracious in our lives.. my life and yours too =].. He too, never left my side.. Thank you Lord..... =] let me walk hand in hand with you in good times.. and in bad times, carry me on your back... =]

Like nana's new year resolution, i wanna be a better person... a better daughter.. a better sister.. a better grand-daughter.. at least XD...

Lets FACE the 2008!!!!!