kangen..?

If you recall, 2 of my frenz lost their dear ones this year... n one of them wrote in their msn nick "i miss my mum"....



I was taken aback when i saw it.. coz i realized that all she can say is just saying 'kangen'... but there's no way she could fulfill it *at least not here, on earth*..... the other fren, maybe is more apt in concealing his feelings.. the few months after his mum departed, i asked how he's feeling.. n he 'pretended' not knowing what i meant, he answered 'fine' laughing and smiling.... but after sometime, he said 'im ok... but trying to cope with it..'



A colleague of mine told me that he's going to his aunt's wake (i dun think it's his aunt, btw.. i think his aunt's relatives or something).. n throughout the conversation he was laughing and joking with me.. i thought.. if it was my aunt *CHOI!!! TOUCH WOOD WOOD WOOD WOOD WOOD WOOD*, i think i'll still be crying like crazy... XD..... well maybe people are not that close to their relatives.. i understand that.. but as you grow older, you learn to accept your relatives more *minus some e x c e p t i o n s!!* and you tend to get closer to them, maybe because they regard you as 'adult' already..? n somehow, once the bond is formed, it is not gonna be broken unless things * or some e x c e p t i o n s* happened......



sad lagh... i havnt called home since last week T.T i duno wads happening in indo.. n sometimes i got this weird feelings for no reasons that makes me really uneasy inside... my dad said that im very 'peka'.. i duno if that's good or bad.. XD but yea.. sometimes it scares me... i'd then look out for my lists of cousins on msn... when one of them is online, ill drill them like crazy =p



Sometimes they blurt it out.. but sometimes, they're smarter in hiding the matter (they have this 'unanimous' decision that they would not tell me anything 'bad' as they dont want to make me 'kepikiran' *so much about being 'unanimous' hor... unanimous minus me is not unanimous lah!!*)



Well.. i duno y.. feeling kinda 'mellow' for these people who have lost their dear ones... T.T i hope they find peace...... as for the 'kangen' feelings,.... u'll fulfil it once u gather together again in heaven ^_^v



Whatever it is, pick up the phone and call them =] !! if u need any card, im available here *mwahahahaha*



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