Mou sukoshi... Mou sukoshi....

Mou sukoshiii mou sukoshiiii hahahahhaa…. Feeling rili2 super happy today… like im in cloud 9 man!!!! Hahaha…. Erhm… beginning from laz nit…. Stupid hung2 sent me this ‘chain letter’ tat said something like ‘send this to 10 people n tomorrow will be ur bez dae’ bweheheh… I do want today to be my bez dae, rite? so I sent to 10 people… some people like THE kutu n THE zhang bei sent me back -_____-“ *tonjoq* Lydia was amazed but said ‘okay… may tomorrow be ur bez dae’ ahahaha… n it came trueeee hehe

I wasn’t late for school, didn’t do anything for the tutorial.. :p n managed to survive today.. hehehe… eniweiiii d bez part issssss gwa suru cogan bli tiketttttt hahahaha… buset d… the kutu was nice enough to set aside when I was talking… maybe he was shaking with laughter but I dun CARE! Hahaha.. well.. pokoke gwa kan ajakin orang2 bli tix… truz pas uda turun, taonya ada dia!!! Lg jalannnn hehehehe…. *uhuk2.. nata ganbarimashou!* truz gwa tanya mau bli tix ga.. heheheheh ehhh dia malah nanya email gwa.. bwhuarhwariuheaorhaou *super duper big grinnnnn* ternyata ktnya dr dulu dia uda ada contact gwa.. tapinya gwa ga perna ol… -_-‘ n tnyata emailnya nyasar.. TOWEWW but wadever it is… skr dia uda punya.. .YAYYYYYY hwaurihriuahrorpaworuhriauhrpiara gwa ampe saking hepinya………………… i called q-kho n marlin straight away… bwehehehehhehe that stupid marlin was saying tat she couldn’t concentrate during her LAW lecture (supposedly her fav lect) juz becoz she imagined ME literally jumping2.. BEGO!!!!!! Heheh jadi maloe… :p!!!!

Well2… leme talk about my fren… she was fine now, but when she was online laz nit, she told me she juz got home… she was soooo ‘yakin’ n ‘putus asa’ n wanted to crash her car… literally suiciding…. *sigh* b4 talking to her, I was talking to another fren of mine who knows about this thing… my fren said that her passport was confiscated by her father unknowingly when she was out.. apparently the father really doesn’t want her to leave her hometown… -_-‘ from the father’s view, he’s having depression, coz he was cheating billions of rupiahs on a project.. n he’s having bad sickness (not sure wad sickness) but he WAS that depressed n he wanted her to be near him to avoid further ‘damage’ to herself.. as I said in my earlier post, she’s changed that MUCH, tat her mum didn’t recognize her at first… thus.. I assume, her parents’ perception is that she changed that much due to her ‘bule’ companions… n thus, forbid her to go back -_-‘ she, on the other hand, has lotza tings to settle, lotza promises to keep, n there’s sumone counting down to her arrival…. She cant possibly let down that sum1 rite? N her pride alone drives her to think of suiciding…. She’s a very proud person, alwiz keep her promises… n thuz, she wun ‘tahan’ if sum1 asked her ‘lulusan mana yah?’ or ‘lulusan apa?’ .. it’d be so very embarrassing to her…. THIS the parents dun understand…

Apparently, she told her mum about the passport tatz confiscated by her dad, n she knew she is v stressed… her mum said ‘dun do stupid things.. dun do stupid things…’… as she was driving to the outskirt of the town, she really wanted to juz end her life.. but she remembered about her mum n backed out…. *SIGH* lucky us……… I was thinking about wad to talk to her when I juz realized she was online… I confided with some frenz, n they said I’d better talk to her, SHE WASN’T REPLYING! So they persuaded me to call her.. well.. I was really confused n panicked too… she, didn’t replying my message could mean ANYTHING…. So I decided to call her…

At first, she doesn’t know that I was the one calling.. she sounded angry.. impatient.. u name it.. her voice was ‘soggy’? (ada ga segh word kyk bgituw?) like she juz cried… so I said ‘hi…. Juz cried?’ she was like ‘u think leh?!’ But she was like…. ‘HEY…!!!! Wahlew…wad u doing?? Y calling me?? Itz ex u know…. Im fine im fine… go go go! Itz late.. im fine… thx for calling mann’ tatz her usual self… I told her tat she didn’t reply my msn… so she was like ‘oh goshhh I was on the phoneeeeee… y u guys are like this nowadays? Im fine u know..’ n then she laughed out loud.. n then she talked some about the problems, talked about wad she left behind in auzie, talked here n there, like she’s really going back there…. I myself felt the pain…. But she could still LAUGH!!! Wadz tat?? When I told her ‘how can u still laugh??!! We’re all tinking about u, tinking how to make u realize these n thatz… n U r laughing out loud??’ n then she told me… that she was sad, was crying n when I called, she felt much better, can laugh, can talk n stuff…. *sigh* she’s rather straight forward u know… she wants to be loved… needs the caring feeling…. Why cant her family see that??!!!! Argh!!!! Thatz all she wants.....!!!!!!!!

well2.. wihu was telling me that maybe i should have taken psychology.... *hix* i wanna learn psychology.. tho i mite not be good at it... i WANT to learn... to learn only... then i'd know how to console people around me... -_-'