Maybes.... May Bes....

*sigh..* unknowingly 1 week left… unknowingly 1 DAY left!!! Goodness gracious :’( I still dun tink I want this holiday to end… seriously… It seems that I have this heavy thing in my head my soul n my mind… dun feel like going back there.. *sigh…* maybe I really need to live at these two countries or wadsoever… I mean when im in Singapore, especially on November or December, I’d want to stay longer.. n maybe in time when so many friends come visiting Singapore, I do want to be in Singapore…

Those days we could go out till late at night… those BBQs… those Pool games… those clubbing ‘plans’… sentosa… all these are much better done in Singapore.. come out on weekends hav been an ‘ALWAYZ’ but I tink tiz are not necessity for me.. as in Bandung, when I dun come out, when I juz hav to stay at home, when I juz Hav nothing to do, I DO NOT MIND…. O_o’ can u bliv tat? I mean when im in Singapore, staying at home would be a bore to me… but why is it not a bore to juz stay at home in indo here? One very obvious answer : “itz my home.. I grew up here n hav been here 4eva…’ well I could literally fond quite aniting n evryting in this house… like ‘companionship’, ‘musical instruments..’ ‘BOOKS’ I mean mangas…

My first aunt asked me to bring keyboard ^_^ I mean buy new keyboard… I declined T.T coz I dun really like keyboards… I want PIANO!!! Hehe… this is something like ‘I dun want new hp.. I want a PDA’ hehe… well2…

Maybe…:
This semester I’d make full use of my time…. In studies… (quite not likely to be so.. but I hope to be getting more responsible than last sem.. I dun want to hog my room for a month in november juz to burn midnit oil EACH n every nit)

This semester I’d join CCA.. wun be v active in it, I juz want the FLUTE!!!! =p ehehehe…. Then it’d be something I could do at home… and maybe something tat I could use to praise the Lord too!! ^_^

This semester I’d be even nearer to Him, ofcoz… I need all the encouragement and naggings from north south east west… hehe… maybe I’d learn to serve Him little by little from my own quiet time… and maybe from there I’d have more passion to serve Him More…..

This semester I’d learn to care more for others.. I know ive not done my job quite well here in Bandung… I found 2 persons who wanted to come to church, but circumstances and difference in preference made it not look ‘inviting’ to them… I should have been more persuasive.. but how to??

This semester I’d learn to be more responsible and independent… (I dun have venny moja and kutu) to hover over me and nagged at me when I haven’t done my labs and to help me for my last minute debugging……….. so yea… gota learn to be wise, bold,.. and stronger..

Next time I come back I’d be a differently better person… more efficient and reliable and more mature captured all in His beauty and Will… that I dun fail my church too =p (coz now they’re quite hm… hm… not disappointed, but quite unhappy… that im still not committing myself to church.. aka BAPTISM.. :p n I dun quite join any fellowships from them *OopZ* heehehehe..) I did ask Johan on how could I be trained to play piano so tat I could serve in church… but I duno if I would ever hav the guts too O_o’ hehe… I’d alwiz have brain dead at D-day.. hehe…

Well all these MAYBEs…. Only I would make it happen… only with the helps of people around me would I then make it happen…. Maybe the magnitude of change is not so great, but I do hope to see some change at the end of the day…. I’d like to learn to change each day…. Even if itz so minute to the extent ‘insignificant’ to ‘unseen’, it’z still called a change when there’s one, right? So guys, let’s strive to be whatever u want to be, whatever u r made for in life…^_^ happy new semester!!! (yea right…) hehe…. =p