midodaren- night.. erhm.. the groom's party

Finally ‘the’ DAY has come… the wedding eve of my beluved cousin n cousin to be… haha...... well I juz taken my gown from the tailor ehrm.. dress maker I mean.. =p my mum’s one too… itz done done done n done… I tot itz nice.. ^_^ n itz paid by the groom’s family.. YAY! :p mum’s one cost less than S$100.- includes material plus all the beads sewn nicely….. geez… aint it quite cheap.. compare it to my blue tube-dress.. it costs almost like that beads-sewn dress…. *sigh..* aint Indonesia quite a heaven to us.. ^_^ my crazy cousin, I tot I mentioned this, made 3 dresses juz for the wedding… I dun tink she’d wear the first one.. itz the modest amongst all three dresses… hehe… well2 the one that I took for her just now is the same exact copy of what kate Hudson wore in ‘how to lose a guy in 10 days’ THAT modest yellow dress but-not-quite-so-modest at the back…. Haiz… if only im in indo.. (apa coba? O_o) mum asked me to make another dress, the one that I’d certainly like….. *imagining a sky-blue dress…* coz she said mine wld be quite cheap (without all the beads) and thus, ive got a DRESS to wear for any family or relatives weddings… hehehe….

tomorrow will hav more picz okay??!! ^_^ promised... hehe... will have my hair keriting ala maggie mie again ^_^ ebraeurihioaweurhreiupa.......

Next,… letz talk about my GP08 course.. geez.. when Ms. Peggy asked ‘what is ur goal for this course’, I said I want to help my dad’s business to be more organized and somehow ELECTRONIZED.. erhm.. I mean converting it from manual to electronic… then….. TADAAAAAAA yeapz… hav been asking him about changing little by little this holiday.. n YEAPZ he agreed to make me ‘educate’ him on having computer helping u in ur business… I tot itz pretty easy.. juz find an accounting software maybe only costs us about Rp. 30,000.- install it… n TADAAAA new stock-taking method!!!

Well2… wadever Peggy said in that course is REALLY true…. She said that often, top management, agrees on having this n thats changed, but somehow deep down in their heart, they dun BELIEVE in that change… n that is the biggest resistance that we have to first, overcome!!! Yeapz.. it happened… MY MUM!!!!! She was talking to me n said ‘yeapz go n help ur daddy change to be more electronic… about stock-taking n stuff..’ n yetttttttt she was the one saying ‘kayaknya susah lagh… blablabalblablablabalbla and ablablablablabla’ itz really juz DIFFICULT to make someone’s heart changed… I believe, when implementation is done, I know we’ll all face restrictions, resistances from the work itself, from the workers, and YES it’d disrupt the usual way of looking thru the stock-book and taking stock manually, writing and deleting the goods when inventory is out or in… *sigh…* itz quite difficult when one only SAY I believe… -_-‘

Juz 2 days ago, we had someone (programmer) came to our house to talk about the program that he made for small businesses… he also said pretty much the same logic as I saw it… but as said, we need time to change.. we need to strengthen n instill the ideas to everyone… especially to my ‘top secretary’ who is now, getting older n somehow not very precise and careful anymore… *another big sigh from me…… O_o’*

On that day, I made super long lecture to my bro.. first time I talked serious to him, that nobody could even interfere…. Itz becoz of that programmer who came tat day.. my dad knows nuts about computers.. so he asked me n AT LEAST my bro is there listening.. maybe to give questions or just throw in ideas… I told him in the morning that he should be back by 3… at 3.30, I had to go out with my mum for a while.. b4 that, I called him n ask him to come back soon.. he said he would……. While I was around 15 minz late, my bro didn’t come till the end of the discussion and he was only back at 5.30… we all knew definitely dad would lecture him on this… before that, I, too have something to say.. I too scared of having my bro irresponsible….

Had him listening to me… he didn’t take ME as lecturing him at first.. he kept on answering my rhetorical questions and my ‘supposedly-making-him-guilty’ with annoying answers… in the middle, I shouted at him, saying his attitude makes me sick.. at that point, my sis n my mum, who were in the same room, moved quite a little n went to another room to whisper things… most probably ME O_o’

Then my dad came (I tot to lecture him) but on contrary, he said it in a v super mild way saying ‘definitely u love dad.. I know u do.. juz tat u dun really show it.. n sometimes u r pretty oblivious to ur surroundings… why not take a change, n take the chance of showing ur love n care now, while u still can… like me, tho now I want to love my bro, I cant…’ (his bro passed away.. long time ago..) at this sayings unknowingly my tears juz dropped… somehow tatz wad I felt.. I love my family so much that I hate to be separated from them.. I love the days finding my sis comfortably watching animes in my room.. later my bro would also snuggle in my slightly-bigger-than-single bed… I love the days where I’d listen my bro playing his guitar while my sis plays piano downstairs.. both playing different tunes… added with the sound of television from my granma’s tv series… noisy, yeaps.. but can u hear tat in Singapore?? I also loves the days my aunt would come with her keyboards and my dad would juz sing loudly with her… at some songs, we’d all be singing with them…. Then the days where I’d scold my bro to juz hurry a bit… to bathe to eat breakfast.. drink vitamin.. brush teeth… wadever it is… im glad, thankful, and rejoicing to God for giving me this family… truly…

N hence, I changed my lecture contains.. I told my bro how my life in Singapore is so free.. nobody cares if u go home late.. nobody cares if u sleep all day.. nobody cares of what u eat… nobody cares if u go with ur frenz all day…. Pluz… nobody would be there to bring u drinks n serve u food… nobody would clean ur room everyday… nobody nag at u when u dun drink ur vitamin or didn’t watch ur health….. isat good?? Answer me…. NO… itz sickeningly ‘independent’ life we call… I tot itz sux… I would rather have that constant knocking on my door before 8 o clock strikes… or that 5 o clock call to jog in the morning… lazy, grumpy.. definitely.. but itz better to have those feelings rather than having ur own life all the time…. Finally I made my bro made a pact tat he’d b more responsible on his own actions and to take care of what he has now….

Funny, the word ‘family’ works this way… ‘scolding’ are not for scolding.. they’re a token of care… after those lecture, me n bro both went upstairs n had our lives as usual.. talked like usual… added with some stupid funny jokes from him O_o’