weekends... & breakz..

last day of school *Friday* tutorial was in a daze.. couldnt undeztand a single ting he said O_o'!! 204 is definitely my most blurred subject... *n it'll have a quiz b4 the end of the semester!* ARGH!!!

well.. plans went hay-wired... from eleta not going to jB, john sim not going, "LUCKY" qkho n frenz wanted to go juz for dinner... well... some idiot forgot his pasport............................................................................................................... -_______________-"
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nvm...

went to orchard for dinner instead... coincidentally, vincent was there too... so we decided to just join Teresia the indo THING for the indoz that we first went to last year.. this year it was held in the church itself... saw familiar faces.. said hi here n there... when we arrived, they're still playing games O_o'! goodness... then followed by the ajojing.. aka mass dance.. ^_^; they're using the project pop songs again.. haha... project P TOP banget dech! if im not wrong, moja too said that indo orientation used loadza project P songs.. *coz of the lameness n cuteness n fun and ....* haha..

then proceed to the bez thing in their programme.. :p *food!* the food was almost like last year.. there are pempeks n rendang... but they also hav nasi uduk, lontong kari, mie baso... *slurp2*.... talked to the people while having dinner... promoting my cards ofcoz.. :p oh well.. senpai said he wants to give me "kangtao".. but as a condition, i have to go to their church at 2.30 :p or to KP on saturdays at 4.15.... haha... oh well... he said he's SACRIFICE going to the remaja service with me... coz many of the teens are having LDR... *drooling drooling* haha...

eniweiz... nice meeting all of them again.. talked to them again.. had fun with them again.. although we cant be said as frenz in the real meaning of frenz, but itz juz great to talk to them again.. haha.. made few frens too.. *forgot wad his name??? the one graduated from NTU?* nvm... cool eh.. meeting the indoz that we know they're on the same shoes as us.. i mean.. have been here for quite sumtimz... have went thru up n downs on singapore education system.. haha.. eniweiz.... i guess we juz CLICKED..... not becoz of those backgrounds.. but becoz there's nothing accidental or coincidental in this world, yeA? ^_^ thx guys... my partner, esther, senpai, shienny, melissa, vincent..... all of u dech.. ^_^

saturday morning we planned to have a bible study group... we dragged till almost 11.30,.. barry couldnt be present.. well2... *me, marlin, sbass, aka n fei*... the group is small, still not knowledgable n we cant be said strong... however, it is a pleasure to be given chance to AGAIN got the feeling of fellowship... as for myself, i hope i gained some confidence and strength to commit.. n found out y am I so uncommitable.. O_o' oh well.. our target was only an hour.. but we talked n discussed, flipping bible here n there till it was almost 2... *whoaaaa* haha... we closed it with prayer requests, praying for each other... it doesnt matter if we're still amateurs... it doesnt matter if our questions usually stuck.. it doesnt matter if there wasnt any songs sung.. wad matters is that when 2 or more people gathers in His name, He will be present.. so He did... ^_^ thx God... we didnt have this 'looking-at-the-watch' glances.. all of us were quite devoted to the discussion and kept on bringing up questions and opinions .... :)

after that, lunch came next, then cleaning up the house, then mahjong till almost 6...!! O_o"! then watched 'it feels alot like love'... dinner... n bed... -_-' so much of my WANTING NOT TO WASTE MY RECESS.. O_o'....

sunday was a holy communion day... as the trays were passed, a song kept playing in my mind... "remember me.." :p haha.. play this song quite a lot of times as it is soothing flowing and could really FEEL the song... ^_^ the sermon was from exodus, which means BEGINNING/salvation i guess.. coz the preacher said we have 2 exodus-es in the bible.. one was israelites brought out of sufferings from Egypt, 2nd was the CROSS of Jesus..

exodus 19 : 5 'now if you obey me fully and keep my covenant, then out of all nations you will be my treasured possession. Although the whole earth is mine, you will be for me a kingdom of priests and a holy nation..'

IF.. the powerful word... O_o'... our holy God is separated from EVERYTHING, and separated from sin... we're all to be 'non-conformers to the creation, n to be conformers to the creator.. a simple phrase yet so hard to be done... and why are we supposed to keep the covenant (commandment) of GOd? 1. coz God is Holy, 2. coz Jesus has done for us, the 2nd exodus... ^_^

when u tink about what God has done,.. really.. i mean even if u r not a believer.. think of this someone.. a Man, would die in humility just for the sake of other people who has forsaken him.. isnt it a SUPER super super heroic of an act? dont tink He wasnt paining on the cross.. dont tink He didnt want to run away from the 'punishment',.. dun tink He didnt want to say what He's got to say, that He's not guilty n stuff... but He did it all.. for US!!!

imagine we're thiefs.. (this is my own tinking only..).. Jesus knows we're in the wrongs.. on that day, the people caught the wrong person.. they WANTED it to be Jesus to do wrong... ofcoz on the nite before it, Jesus was struggling whether or not to turn away from this.. all of us dont want to be deemed wrong... dont want to be punished... but Jesus did it all for us...! He didnt say it was US that did wrong... he didnt even SAY that it wasnt HIm that did wrong... He kept silence as everyone mocked Him, punished Him.. even to His death, when everyone was keeping distance from Him.. He didnt even blurted out that they caught the wrong person.. He ASKED for forgiveness for all of us that we didnt know who we are......... till he breathed his last breath, he didnt spill that it was us who sinned.....

i tot this illustration shows simple fren-fren kind of thing.. a friend died so that the other friend is spared from death punishment.. but what Jesus DID was a far greater than frend-frend kinda thing.. he KNOWS we're going to be punished even when we didnt even know... he knows that we're clueless and no way to help ourselves... he came to us, we rejected him, although we, through our sins were the ones responsible for putting him on the Cross.... He died, so that all of us would be delivered away from that eternal sufferings and torture of hell.............. how can we repay?!?!?!?!?!?! sometimes when we think logically, put Jesus in this present society, we could see how great his work is...

well.. the thought juz came across my mind.. :) there are many things in the bible that we could never understand.... even this EXODUS by Jesus.. Y??! y would enione do so? if only something like this happen in this society...., Jesus would be on tv, newspaper, magazines everywhere that one person died in place of another... he's a heroic person.. but ofcoz.. He didnt do it for a 'showbiz' purpose.. His sincerity lies on saving us.. n saving us alone... that's y he was born in a lowly manger in the first place..., when he could have chosen the best palace in the world..............

sigh... even though so much things i thought of, so much things i feel so much things i know.... i still cant commit...... O_o'! how?!!