One of my family whom i know only in church passed away last week.. despite my phobia of looking at coffins and being in the middle of 'kebaktian duka', my dad decided that i NEED to start going to those places to 'respect' the family of the deceased... especially if it's close relatives.... geez...



It's been a looonggg time since i went to a wake... i cant even recall if ive ever BEEN to a funeral =p well... the place has not changed much.. the place is actually very close to marlin's sis' house!! they have many many rooms to hold the wake... oopz.. my bad.. it's actually 'kebaktian penghiburan' and not kebaktian duka.. =p hehehe.. there's no reason for us to be so deep in 'kedukaan' if we know the deceased has already been freed from worldly sufferings, right?



My point is, i was really surprised that the place has not changed much... as i stepped in, i was kinda lost n duno wad to do.. the last time i went, i was with my dad.. n we kinda 'mengheningkan cipta' or pray in front of the coffin... but this time, we dont even look at the coffin... good for me =p



N i kinda dont understand why people who went there could still laugh n smile and crack jokes with each other.. i mean.. i know they dont feel the 'pang' (as i dont)... but still.. i think should respect the family who might be in the bring of tears each seconds.... but anyway.. i got bored and started to talk with my aunt and laugh alot too =p oopz..



Afterward, the condolence service was lead by cousin who became an evangelist.. she has such emotions in her voice, that i make me remember that im in a 'wake' which i hate so much =.=.... the songs that she chose were my fav songs T.T which, come to really THINK of the lyrics, are funeral songs... geezzzzzzzzzz.............



Nyway.. after the wake, the family of the deceased came around and talked to the guests... since my granma said that we're close family, we had to stay sooooo long =.=; *i got to eat a v nice porridge, though* =p.. apparently, i have confusion (as always) about my relative's family tree XD XD n i got a crash course about it in the wake =p then, one of my family whom i called 'auntie' who just got married hm... 2 years ago? was told that we look alike XD XD... memang muka gw kinda pasaran, i guess



Well.. on the lighter note, ive finished watching '1 pound gospel'..... starring YAMA CHAN!! my gosh... i was surprised that he is actually taller than i thought he was (read: not as chibi i thought he was) =p then.. in episode 2 or 3, there's this punk kid who came to the club challenging kame (the main actor)... n it was CHINEN!! XD he looks SUPER GOOD there XD... mwahahaha... i think ill like him when he change his hairstyle and change he too-sweet-smile XD



Next... i watched 'yukan club' starring jin akanishi and 2 other KATTUN guys... i must say, JIN IS GOOD! ^_^v... the 2nd epi (or 3), there's also CHINEN!!!! geez... i kinda see him in quite alot of shows now, dont i? XD n my fav epi so far is the one with Kei-chan!! cant help but screamed out 'kei chan!!' n my sis apparently noticed him too =p



Watched the 1st episode of 'ganbatte ikimashoi' starring ryo nikishido and uchi (cant remember his first name T.T) from long time ago.... n SERIOUSLY... uchi is soooo kakkkkooooiiiiiii!!! *gya gya gya mode*... but i cant seem to bring myself to watch the 2nd epi =.=' quite a draggy drama... the way they speak, their conversation, etc.. is super draggy to me.. the consolations are uchi n ryo, of course =]



2 weeks left for my hols :(! i still havent finished the stock... =.=; ive gota start waking up earlier and start my activities earlier too....