lonely.... im so lonely.... i have nobody.... im on my own....

one week has passed since i came back to singapore.. *sigh*... v fast, eh?! well.. this week had been 'busy'.. with my bro here in singapore, it was my pleasure to bring him around singapore... showing him places of interests.... well... enjoying his company too.... at least when i came back, i still had him... i wasnt completely alone.....

hm... went to loadza places with him.. only went to school 2x... i mean i went to school twice but attended CLASS 1x.. which was the first day of school :p hehe.. the 2nd time, i got the wrong lect theatre... n since it'd be a small lecture hall, i decided to juz skipped :p well... it wasnt actually a 'waste' coz me n my bro went around NTU, showing him singapore's campus life.. n he was in awed seeing libraries, canteens and lecture halls... itz quite different from indo's campus... in indo, they dun hav lecture/tutorials.. itz alwiz tutorials in lecture mode... so number of people is like tutorial classes, but tutors dun tutor... they lecture.... got it?? he was quite scared when i asked him to crash into NTU.. saying that the tutor might spot him... but when he was sitting together with us at LT, he got more n more comfortable that he slept.... -_-'

hm.. let'z talk about the 'purpose he came to singapore'... for one, i wanted a company =p then i reasoned out that he's having his holiday, he juz graduated from HS, he deserved some 'graduation prize', n i would make him more 'independent' by having him ONLY with me... i mean if he comes with my mum or sis, they'd definitely make him more comfortable... mum, for one, would prepare his breakfast... fold his clothes.. etc etc.. my sis would be the one he 'ordered' when he wants to buy food or asking direction... he'd NOT do it himself...

my dad saw my pointS.. n he let him come with me for a 'holiday cum learning' session... especially when i said im gona bring him to NTU to sit in for lectures, the whole of family supported him to go.. juz to let him taste NTU life... lucky him, he got the same plane as me.. this has NEVER happened b4 b/w me n my mum... we alwiz cant get same flight... well.. came back with twins, lucy and a 'nurse'... cut the story short, b4 going into immigration, we all went out again to say farewell to our parents... we went different ways, ofcoz... then mum was advicing me this n thats... saying i should make my bro's holiday a fun one... dun be too harsh on him... that i should study well.. take good care of myself... n all mothers would say to daughters.... n then i realised tat im leaving.... T.T...... started to have teary eyes... hung2 was cursing me for crying coz she, in turn, was crying too...... i juz hate it that i have to live separately... WHY?!!! -_-'!! well at least the twinies are inseparable... they hav each other... i have no one.... *at least i got my bro this time*.... on the night of our arrival, san2 told me that she got homesick, that they both cried at night... *again.. lucky i got my bro..*



homesick homesick homesick!!!!!!!



let'z talk about happier tings... my n my roamed singapore everynit n dae... well we also went to JB.. n he found 'heaven' there... everything so cheap there... bought HARRY POTTER from 1-4 + number 6 at a very very cheap price.... lucky my sis!!! my bro oso got wad he wanted... adidas snickers... jacket n 3/4 pants.... *suit suit...* HE was the one shopping... i didnt buy a single thing.. couldnt find anything for me... O_o'...!! then went to meet my cousin who juz came to singapore last month... then met her again the next day coz she wants yuki to bring something to indo for her fam.... well.. at least another family is here..... *sigh...*

I oso brought him to cinema... not that itz different from indo's cinema... well in some way itz different... singapore's cinema dun have a-few-seconds-of-peace when the in-charge change the film roll :p... hm... well he was supposed to go back on saturday... even till friday, he still couldnt get a seat for sunday.... so we decided to skip sentosa... however, mum kept on insisting tat we should go... well... we didnt :p hehehe....

on friday we went to bugis library instead (crazy!) to read books for a few HOURS!! o_O' itz becoz both of us felt v v v tired... pool was cancelled... so we went to newton circus with my cousin n her fren, hana... afterwards, went to airport to meet eli..... it wasnt my plan to go straight to airport from dinner.... so i didnt bring eli's stuff O_o'!! gomene............. introduced yuki to my frenz,... n he got along quite well with fauzi.... (duno y...) tho he kept quiet most of the time, at night, he told me tat he had a good time..... haha.... geez... 'tomorrow' he was going back.......

the next morning, we were prepared to go to the market for last minute shopping for fresh food... i duno y i decided to call Thai airways... n the guy said yuki could get a seat for SUNDAY!!! YAAAAAYYYYYYY wah... so v happy!!! really really happy... quickly smsed our parents.. n mum 'scolded' me for telling her so late... excuse meeeee i juz knew it too!!! O_o'

well it was a rainy saturday... but i was quite 'burdened' to bring him to sentosa... eniwei.. as the rain poured, we then decided to stop by at IMM first... had our shopping at daiso... walked around for Straits times' 160 years exhibition.... had our lunch... n then, set out for sentosa...... geez.. itz quite boring to go sentosa without going to the beach to play... O_o"! i really ran out of ideas on wad to do.. O_o' so we only went to pink dolphin, underwaterworld, n then STONED to wait for musical fountain.... -_-' sentosa on weekends are CHAOTIC... so many people.. so many kids... so many crowds... oh noooooo O_o'!!!

well2... my bro was quite un-enthusiastic b4 watching musical fountain,... he tot 'FOUNTAIN ONLY...'... but he was in doubt when he saw crowds started to come like an hour before it actually starts.... n when it does, start, he was really really dumb-struck stupefied... hehe... nice eh? itz only my 3rd time watching oso... :p! hehe...

haiz... that one day passed too fast... too short.... the next day he had to leave oredi... -_-'

in the morning, woke him up to go to church... he didnt want to becoz of the exhaustion :p hehe.. but i insisted he had to... GOD has been so merciful and kind, allowing us to have a full-extend, free and happy holiday... so he complied... went to BBPC... was 5 minz late :p hehe... the preacher was VERY SUPER FUNNY... he got us all laughing our heads off.....

thenn after church, we quickly had our lunch at lot1, shopped for the fresh food (tat we didnt do on saturday), then went home to pack... it was almost one..... with all these n thats, thank God, we made it quite in time for airport... ^_^... told me to check in by himself, etc etc.. fauzi took leave from his work but came to airport to 'assist' my bro to the right gate... well i told him not to tell my bro THE WAY.. juz let him navigate his way, but when he's wrong, fauzi could tell him the right way... geez... before going into immigration, my bro turned to me n asked 'lo ga currrr?' meaning 'u wun cry?' haha... beliv me... i was crying.. BUT after he went in :p *paiseh2*... then waited for fauzi to come out n 'report' to me how he was doing........ *sigh..*

the tot of going home... to THIS particular house im living under is not soooo 'satisfying..' i duno.. i'd rather trade this whole house with my indo house... no matter beautiful this house is (i mean the view.., the facilities...) i tink i still love my home better...... T.T!!!!!!! fauzi kinda 'saved' me from boredom... we went to tampines mall... walked around... it hasn't changed that much, eh?!! then had an early dinner.... THEN my bro smsed that he'd reached indo safe n sound... again, asking me wther i cried.. O_o'!! haiz....

last night, dreamt of my bro... WAD D HELL.. the folded bed beside me still not cleared yet... well im quite used to having him sneezing in his sleep, noisily reached for tissue n blew his nose... well... i had a 'peaceful' sleep last night.. but he was in my dreams, shopping around with me O_o'! haiz......

gota say, that my bro is not that 'matured' yet, but somehow, he's more independent and more confident now... when i asked him to ask things, buy things, request things, he wouldnt recoil... juz went ahead and did it... so... at one point, he HAS changed... or maybe we havent got the chance to see THIS side of him which had been burried all along?? i duno... but im happy that he's not as light headed as she-who-must-not-be-named.... :p

well.................................. IM STILL FEELING HOMESICK!!!!!!! haizzzzzzzzzz mum called juz now to say that my bro was telling stories with my granma n dad n mum at dinner table... sis came to unpack her 'oleh2...' *haiz....* how i wish i was thereeeeeeee i want to be there....!!! *sighhhhhh*!!!!! feeling quite lost n lonely now.... -_-'!!!! *sigh..............................*