consecutive update.. O_o

Aish.... woke up super late today... and yup, I was dreaming abt cogan for no reason.... geez... XD.....

Sometimes it's really weird whereby someone who is not related to you and WONT relate to you in any way, can affect u that much.. =p

And one day u will feel tired to be looking to that someone who wont even bat an eye towards you... well.. i've "stopped" looking out for him, but  somehow it's just there lha hor.. XD but yup, i can safely say, I am NOT looking out for him or hoping for extra attention or wadever... or anything........ coz... I really2 someone who wont matter, wont matter, no matter how long it takes =) 

But of course, if he suddenly appear in dreams, i cant say no... n i wont say no... other than.. please come to my dreams often XD n ofcoz, when me n my frens meet up, they'll kinda "tease" me about Mr. C... and I'll happily give the snippets of thots, ideas and entertainment =p but yup, in fact, i have not seen him for the longest time... O_o hm... ok.. someone asked me whether I ever feel lonely... well.. maybe I dont know the full story of happiness to know what exactly loneliness is... So, for now, I am just doing what I want n dont really care the rest first =p hehe..
 
I mean... u can make yourself say "find someone X, Y, Z"... but when ur heart doesnt want do it as of yet, I can't say no also wad =p haha..... n u just cant expect a change of heart when someone is being pushed in front of ur nose... "nah, go and like this person".... O_O or expect you to well.. like someone because you have been "Forever" with him... I've always gotten this from my parents and friends.... "X" ajaa... u've known him since secondary school days.... it's like.. So? O_O' 

 haiz.. the blog started sweet as it was a nice dream... n ended with complaints... gomen =p shitsureishimasu..~~ XD