The thinking nata….

Ive been tinking about the fren of mine… how she is so unhappy about life… she might tink ‘y was I born into this world?’ true enough, if u SEE the unhappiness about life, u’ll find, no doubt, ABUNDANCE… but y cant u turn d kaleidoscope for once to see a different side of ur life…? life is not flat… n thatz supposedly to spice up ur life…! Well, its that same life,…, the one that u say itz against u or something… but somehow.. hold it differently, look at it from another tilted angle, u’ll find something ELSE in that life… ofcourse, these are theories… I know…. Life is not that simple.. everyone knows that too! But somehow, people around u are also MADE for you! Dun u ever forget that!

Sometimes I do want to strangle her…. I listen to her, another fren listens to her, we got panicked if we forget to ask how is she for a few days… n what we got? ‘hh! Wad do u understand about me? What do u understand about my situation? U wont be able to put urself in my shoes’ DUH! I know I wun understand…. My advices are my point of view.. the cold-headed, n not affected by YOUR surroundings kinda advice… but we do try alrite! Try our bez to calm u, to see the bez in ur situations, to give u hope…. Whatever u tink with ur hot-head might not be the bez of the situations… well2.. I guess, really, we hav to listen to both sides of the stories… we cant judge based on ur account alone… *sigh* tatz hard situations uve got, but looking at the other perspective, itz also NOT wrong… -_-‘ they r scared tat u’ll leave them forever… like my parents, they’ll not worry about tinking I wun go back.. true during holidays, I dun feel like going back, coz frenz here are more ‘on’ than back in indo.. but the bond b/w parents n children are not juz BONDS… they’re real n u r attached to it forever… sometimes when im not feeling well, my mum wld juz call me out of a sudden… as in she’d FEEL something n thus, she’d call to find out why… this IS the real bond b/w parents n children…. Maybe sometimes when u tink ur parents dun understand u, it might be true…. We are all humans… we act self-interestedly… wadever u do, is for ur own freedom n future… wadever ur parents do, is also for the sake of not losing u, n keep u closer to home…. Is it wrong?? Depends on how u see through it…. *sigh* I duno….. -_-‘

If u ask me, people look at me n say ‘u r a happy go lucky kinda girl’… true… but there is another side of me where sometimes I juz ‘also’ kinda not happy with life.. n thatz when I start tinking why am I here, why am I in ntu.. why am I mixing with this kind of group… why are my parents these n that’s… what I do usually is juz to sleep with those thoughts.. n when I wake up, I’ll hav a new tinking, that life IS a blessing… life cant make u sad if u dun choose it to be… life has more to offer… look at around u, u’ll see people hav more problems in their life… maybe not even a reason to smile for a day.. n thatz when u realize that ur life is so much 100x better than theirs.. tink about the survivor of tsunami… dun u tink they’ll feel that they’d be much better if they’re also swept away? Wad wld u feel living in the world, ur family lost.. unknown wther they’re alive or dead or suffering sumwhre.. frenz lost in their own thoughts n melancholy, new neighbours in new city as ur own home town is destroyed…. TAT kind of people u hav to compare urself to! They dun hav the advantage of sleeping in a nice bed…. Running with deadlines… chatting or arguing with ur family… squashing ur brain to do tutorials…. Compare it… dun u agree tat our lives are much more simpler n happier than theirs? Count ur blessings… try it… the song ‘count ur blessings’ sing it in ur head everyday…. Count ur blessings, name them one by one… count ur blessings and see what God has done… in indonesian it’z said ‘Hitunglah berkatmu satu persatu, engkau akan heran lihat jumlahnya…’ it’z like u’d be amazed at the amount… DUH! Its uncountable… usually, when u reflect on blessings, u’ll say ‘Lord, I thank You for today…. My results are good… I got extra money from granma… etcetc…’ but is tat all??? The fact u could WAKE UP n say grace, itz already a blessing… maybe it sounds ‘wah.. so trivial’ air that u breathe in… I may sound like a preacher… but isn’t it so TRUE? We take everything around here for granted that even those simply tiny blessings are not included in our prayers? Then again… itz also true tat if we SAY those things, our prayer would last a day long.. :D haha my point is tat u juz hav to remember those things as BLESSINGS TOO! Given freely by our Holy God above… when u can sort this out, u’ll find ur life is more meaningful and BLESSED…. U’d stop thinking why is life like this or that’s…. alrite?