uhm.................................................

wondering wadz up with my life?

i hav been mugging....
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my first paper was on wednesday, just after deepavali... tat was 203 software systems n models... u know wad? i duno how to do 1 question AT ALL o_O'! itz applet thingy... using GUI to do ur programming.. n i duno how to do it... >_<>_< i want a pass!!! at least i could do it, i did my best, i was watching lecture videoing ever since the last week :p so.. i hope i pass tat subject.... ogh.. there's one 'give away question' tat says write a HTML code to hav the wordings 'welcome to my applet' appear in the size of 300/400 or something like that... n i was like..' WHAT? o_O'!' yea.. tat'z my give away question too... give away the marks to the lecturer O_o'!

well luckily no FLAG question comes out... *phew..* n also that my singaporean frenz said something like 'haiz.. duno.. die..' u know.. those sort of words... cogan also said he duno how to do.. but i hope we all pass lagh hor... *sigh*... next paper was marketing...

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right after hari raya.... yesterday venny wihu n moja came to my house to study.... i got a sale from cun2.. a maid i knew who is from bandung also.., fauzi came to give me ketupat with his punjabi clothings........ saw the 4 of us lying on the floor trying to cramp things into our heads.. try to get some ideas from each other on how to answer questions..... wadz the point? exam questions looked 'easy'.... answers were not okay..... O_o'!!!! only 3 questions... O_o'! 1 MCQ (10 parts) carries 3 marks each... *NUTZ!* n up to now, i got 3 wrongs, i guess.. O_o;;;;;;;;;;;;

number 2 was quite 'easy'.. everyone definitely can do number two...... u know wad? i was reading it... i re-read... think about it... n i still do like wad everyone did... O_o'!!.................................................... well we'll still get some marks.... but this EVERYONE *for concolation to them,* got HIGH MARKS for their marketing plan!!!

our tutor apparently quite deceiving.. he has this happy n frenly face to us... but wad do we get? a D+ for our marketing plan!!! no wonder my fren told me 'dun be happy when u see him smiles at u during presentation... it means ur presentation sux..' well true enough... he gave us such marks... he wasnt smiling during my journal presentation... he wasnt smiling during our final marketing plan.. tho' he did say that our marketing plan is quite poor... no implementation wadsoever.. n so WAD? if our marketing plan is so powerful, we wldnt even be in NTU.. we'd be making loadza money by now.. O_o'! haiz......................... quite depressing legh marketing!!! :'(! it pains me to think that my GE *yea... GE ONLY...* makes me feel this way.. especially projects!! itz group work.. n stuff... i never expect to get so low... -_-'!! i mean.. PLEASE.. before he put a D+, he gave us an F okay... wadz that??!!! F for a project?? since when??!!!! haiz.. wadever.. im quite pissed with him.... i tell u something... LOOKS can be deceiving... look at moja n venny.. they complained that their tutors liked to shot questions during ur presentation... so wad? did he mark u down?? this tutor of mine will say... 'okay... okay... okay...' BOOM marks gone.. O_o'!!!!!! well i didnt tell wihu yet.... he was pretty pissed by the paper tat after the paper he was suddenly gone with the wind...... didnt do one part *10 marks* question..... well he was 10 mins late.. O_o' after all of us mis-calling him duno how many times *he still didnt wake up*.. i was the last one to cal him when i was already in front of NTU waiting for 199.. he said he woke up already.. then fell back to sleep O_o'!

while others were rejoicing dun-caring the exam... since this exam only carry 50%.... wad about us? we hav to rely on this exam to pass!!! shit.. O_o"! n itz like if i got D for marketing, i cant continue minoring in business animore.....


to add to the stress......


i received a disheartening news about our family n frenz in indo getting threat messages that says 'chinese will be raped n murdered just like 1998...' well........ maybe worse... i received an email that these people are already spying on malls n places to put bombs........ when i msged my sis... she was like 'ogh.. ya.. i know... dad also received it wad..' WHAT???!!!!!!! n never even told me??? n when i say 'then how?' the answer was.. 'dad kept cool about it... up to now nothing went bad...' DUH!! itz hari raya O_o'! the sms also stated that it is AFTER hari raya these things would happen.... but sis wasnt really scared at all.. she even said she wanted to send me her next novel O_o'! oh well... i insisted knowing more about it.... she said 'juz leave it to God..' but u need escape plans right....!!!!

then i started asking people on my msn list... all bandung people.. wijen's cousin got it.. shu's cousin got it *apparently moja's cousin got it too*... fera didnt know anything was then very anxious.. her exam is on monday.... haiz.... sorie fer... oh well oh well oh well oh well!!!! i hav no idea why the sms senders were saying 'bcause of u chinese, gas prices soar...' WAD? r u dumb?! hav u not been reading the news?! these uneducated people are easily influenced when other people said it that way.. especially in difficult times.. they could do nothing but do something..!!

nothing in the sense that they hav no knowledge or wadsoever, something in the sense that they then hav something to do other than sitting around at home biting on their nails for food, n burn people's houses... ogh! i remember! when we were studying for 204 quiz... anna got sms from her fren saying 'pray for blablabla.. she's now in hospital.. last night her house was burnt down by the u-know-who... her mum is in a more tragic state..' yea... tatz wad happen in indo.. u dun like me? u burn my properties... yes... the word is SELF-DESTRUCTIVE! let's all go to grave together.. tat'z their motto... haiz... how to revive this stupid poor country?!! i mean we, chinese or not, are there to help the economy going... why cant just swallow their pride and admit it that the biggest SAHAM is not from their people but the "FOREIGNERS"... sad isnt it? being a foreigner in ur own land.. O_o'!! juz a few days ago i read straits times said 'indonesia is in need of foreign investors..' showing the half done buildings... yea right.... who would want to invest now that everything has gone to this path??

i hope these people came to their senses... wadz the use of going round and say 'minal aidhin' n forgive me and forgiving each other if after that they'll do sin again??? i feel like im doing stupid things here saying minal aidhin to the maids around me.... hoping to change their minds about the chinese-indo.... wadz the point?? after they go back to their kampong they wont even remember you.. even if they do.. wad can they do? go to ur city and protect you? big NONSENSEEEEEE....... agnes was URGING me to just get singapore PR.. like it or not.. want it or not... she was saying 'buat jaga2..'.. she was never insistent about me taking up PR or not.. but this time, she was pretty serious.. Isit even not possible for all of us to be integrated and united?????!!!

well... i hav another consolation tho... itz taken from the QT today, john 2: 1-11... as i almost went for my paper, i read it and its about trusting HIM n HIM alone... trust that THIS is wad he's going to do, n that this is for the best.... if my sis down there could be in a peace-of-mind state, why cant I try doing it........ hard.... hard.... hard...... reminds me of last week's preaching... its hard... definitely.... but everything will not be in vain............ amen..... amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen!!!!

ogh.. let's also give thanks to the ISCF people for taking time to pray for our papers... today, especially, the girl got up that early just to pray for our exam... thx girl *duno wadz her name oso*.... just that im touched when venny said 'u also take marketing?' then she said 'no...' n smiled... so... yea.. she came just to pray... THX.... ^_^


*amen == so be it... / let it become true...

to my boy boy harry: i dun think i could help her legh.. hehe... i dun even know wadz the problem... wad i 'notice' is that her friend kept on tagging everyday, writing soooo much, flooding her taggies,reading her entry... then attacking her entries.. n so wad? haha.. it shows that her fren is distress!! not hany.. she is smart to write that last entry about her life with her OTHER FRENS *ofcoz.. she has other frenz..* n said 'i love my life' haha.. well.. itz in a way making it more difficult for her frend to forgive her tho... but who cares man.. she said sorry already.. she didnt accept? make her feel happy that she's in her own tiny little world of 'alone-ness' lor.. hany still got other frenz n be happy with life =p *mommy ga bener negh =p* i guess it made her fren got jealous while reading it.. tatz why she didnt say anithing to that entry... well... i hope they'll got back together.. tatz wat frenz are right... i mean itz such an irony that *referring to her fren's blog*, one entry she was saying 'im happy that i have hany *or something like that*.. other frenz are not real frens, hany is..' then the next entry is B****ing about hany... NEGH? oh well... u guys are still secondary wad... things like this do happen LOADZA TIMES in secondary.. we will still be looking for frenz tat would somehow be the same as us.. if u like movie, ur fren will like movies too.. if u like chocolate ice cream, she would hav to like chocolate ice cream too... but well.. as u get older, more difficult to get close frenz *who would love the same thing as you*, but u learn more to appreciate frenship... if u like chocolate, i like vanilla, the other one like chocolate chips, then we can all dig in swensen's earthquake.. *koq contohnya ice cream yagh hahaa...* if we ALL like chocolate.. then the other flavours go to waste ma... *ugh.. i sound like expert.. O_o pdhl sering banget brantem ma orang... huiq2.. well i myself hav also brantem-balik-brantem-baekan-brantem-lupain experience* the thing is.. u know life is short... why not make the most of it... let's worry about the bigger problems.. ur fren hates u? so wad??? MOVE ONNNNN haha.. at least hany said sorry SINCERELY already wad *i hope she also offer to be fren again*... not that it'd be as easy as in the movie... =p like marlin n nana had answered, itz HARD to mend a broken heart.. cie.. itz not hany's fault if the other party dowan to accept the apology... we know it best, right fau??? ^_^


well to hany : u still got US!!! ALL OF US... MUWAKZ2... nini: tgl 11 ikut poto2 ama xmas tree mao gax? ;p haha... narciss negh gwa.. O_o'! heriuwrbaoibrepreuawrhpiwarhpe