amazed...

u know.. sometimes im amazed by this life.. How life could change so fast... in months.. in hours.. in minutes or even within seconds? How fragile is this life?


Once we walk down this isle of life, we cant turn back or even step back a bit.. we can't even slow down the tick of time..


Sometimes i regretted things i've done or havn't done.. why didnt i pay attention to these people more in my life? why let "busy" be the reason of me overlooking those people?


Things changed... people changed.. family break apart.. businesses ruined.. we might ask WHY?? or SO FAST?? but that's fact.. we're not as strong as we appear to be.. accept it!! we are strong because things has been good for us.. if only we step out of our comfort-zone.. financial matters.. health matters.. love matters.. we're sooo ready to fall apart and give up..


Personally, i tink life is too fragile to handle.. remember the tremor we felt last month? what IF.. the earthquake was bigger than that in indo? I might not be smiling or tinking what to shop this weekend or what to do to hang out later....


Have u been thinking what you are really doing in this earth? what is the purpose of us living on this earth? are you ready if God takes your life now? face it.. life is too fragile.. You could breathe the last breath anywhere anytime anyhow...


Come back to the right path....!!


I have been wandering eversince last week of january.. too lazy to go to church.. first week.. second week.. third week missing church services until i was too numb to have a self-consciousness that i HAVE been straying away............


Life has been good.. too good? was it becoz i was too tired of waking up early and the bus journey to church was simply too "tiring".... lame excuses..


I finally went to this fellowship my friend asked me to.., preaching by rev caleb tong slapped me back to reality.. he preached loneliness, endlessness, uselessness and (some other things i forgot) are the biggest problem in one's life..


But to us... to ME.. God has given His grace... grace is not something you gain because you work for it (not an earning).. grace is not something loaned to you by God, nor is it a supplement to your life..


Grace is given by our merciful God to save you (ME!) from darkness and eternal fire.... If only we would put God to lead our life.. our life would be fruitful... this is the example rev Tong gave:
01, 001 , 0001, 0001, 00001.. no matter how much zeros we put, it is still a one.... what if we let '1' lead? 10.. 100, 1000, 10000...... 100000... that's our life if we put God to lead!!


This week, i learnt alot of things.... we are not who we appear to be..., so others might not who they appear to be too... so, don't JUDGE... reach out!


Two.. i regretted not reaching out to someone close to me (relationship) these years.. now that the person is gone, I hope some other people can re-assemble the shattered life by bringing my friend and family to Christ.. i know only jesus can tend and mend a broken heart......


Three.. i regretted that 'work' and 'busy' are in my dictionaries that i forgot to call my friend who is really really in need of consolation and accompanion last week.... until now, I still cant reach that person..... i hope things are all right...


Four.. i am happy and thankful that God gives me hope... hope to be a better person, hope to do better in whatever he asked me to.. and he's given me people to support me all the way.. putting their trusts on me.. (sometimes people need trusts and weights to know their worth.... )


Five.. I realized how GREAT opportunity is for me to be able to continue my studies... in NTU.. in computer engineering course.... i need to make good use of my last year not to waste the brain and talent God has given me.. maybe i am not a very good undergrad... i may think im in the wrong course... others might think im "useless computer engineering undergrad" but hey.. HE'S with me... what can others say?


Anything that's too hard in your life.. say this line with me..: Im nothing.. but He's with me.. i came across this line when i read daily bread online in office....)


We can do anything with him.. He's leading in front.. our zeros would be meaningful now...


Commitment: not to run away from God again... ^_^