November 05, 2005

back... huehuee

nana : iyaa ada threat msg gituw entitled to the chinese... ktnya we r the cause of petrol hike O_o'! dumb-o O_o'! no brain people.... -_-' cretin!!

negh i make it bigger... :p

eniweiz... to marlin: lha.. emang gwa bilang ga mao pulang? no matter wad.. if they dun come here, definitely i will go there...!! u know the 1998 thing happened, u werent there?? me n my family got the whole of our maids and our workers stationed at our house... that house is theirs for a few days.. they were crying when they knew something might happen to all of us... but wad can they do? itz their own people doing this.. all they could do is try to make everyone who's passing by our house thinks that that house is theirs..... we all? k kikih *da guy that u knew* persuaded all of us to go to an army camp n camped for 3 days.. we still did our works.. my mum n dad went to work... m n siblings went to school... but that THREE days were full of agony..... every now n then there will be calls from our frenz/relatives that some big group were forming here n there... *these people went pass my house too FYI and ofcoz.. becoz my maids n workers went out to pretend to 'see' wad they're doing-parading aimlessly, we were passed* u know the feeling everytime an sms/a phone rang...?? back then only a few of us owned handphone mind you.... u duno the feeling of anxiety back then......

after that 3 crucial days, we all slept with our bags beside us at home... emergency bag containing our important papers some food water n money... my granma told all of us *back then my cousins were not married n lived with us* that if anything happen, we should know she loves us... can u imagine that situation?? like she somehow would sacrifice herself and let all of us run through the back door.. isit an escape plan?? my mum already told me to take care of my brother n sis... like no matter wad dun let go ur sis' hand *she was v young back then n i was not in a very good terms with her ofcoz.. we were so keen on fighting with each other* she told me to be patient with her.. put her in priority.. dun be selfish.. n stuff like that... yuki was also told to protect the two of us.. after all he's a guy... u know... itz very scary... becoz my house is somehow v near to the town.. near to the places where these people would meet up... n our region there's not so many chinese-indo.. so they could juz spot i think..... is thinking all these an escape plan? yea.. it is.. u know why i was sent away to singapore? it was also becoz of that... isit an escape plan?? i think it is.. so isit putting doubt in God so if i trust God ALREADY.. i should go back indo now then?

so as i write these entries... i tink escape plan as precaution...... is precaution == doubting God? i duno.... if itz like what u define... "if He did do this, then i can have something else to do,.. see how...' then i think my thinking is wrong.... +_+' but then.. i bliv hving an escape plan as precaution wun do IF He dun will it too...

i believe trusting God is defined as putting every hope in Him, but we also have to work right... like u TRUST God will pass you... n u dun study... will He?? i Trust God will heal me.. but u dun seek medication... isit Trust?? as for this matter, i tot i said it at the last paragraph that yesterday's QT was about trusting God? the story of Jesus attending a wedding in Cannan... when he performed his first miracle of turning water to wine.. the workers just did wad He said.. n That is trusting God.. he Did wad God asked Him to do...

when yesterday u said im doubting God.. i was thinking the opposite way from you... my escape plan is not WHAT ur escaple plan is.. i guess... it was just to get the house ready for any invasion... *tho ofcoz.. if He will it, it'll happen... * back door key stand by... for an access to come OUT of the house to stay outside *a very very small road that no one might go into..* till the rage subside.... i knew some people bought loadza tudungs for themselves and their family in order to save themselves... THAT i dun agree.. when u declare u r a christian, u cant back out... or HE will be ASHAMED on you.....

posted by nataLia at 10:45 am

3 Comments:

  • gw sependapat ma donat. thinking of ways to save yourself is not untrusting God, it's not like you don't believe that He will save you, but it's just something very natural for us to do. humans nature is: flee when there is danger, i don't think following what God had made us is defying our faith in Him.

    there is difference between trusting that God's power with confronting the danger. i mean, as much faith as anyone would have, i don't think it's wise to confront more danger than otherwise necessary. if there's a mall that's been threatened to be bombed, you dont just purposely go there right, even though you are full of faith that God will keep you from harm.

    i think that paragraph above a bit out of point =p

    what i'm trying to say is: trusting God is like trusting that He will help you escape if there's danger coming your way. but of course if you don't even try to save yourself, how is He going to help?

    just some jokes i read in some books: a man prayed very hard for God to help him out of economic crises. he prayed, "God, please help me win a lottery" and then, full of confidence that God will answer his prayer, he waited for 3 whole days. but nothing ever happened. then he confronted God, "Tuhan kenapa Engkau tidak menjawab doaku??" dan terdengar suara menggelegar dari atas, "tidak membantu?? beli donk loterenya!"

    then there's another one i read in other joke book:

    seorang suci yang rajin beribadah dan berdoa terperangkap di banjir besar. dia berdoa agar Tuhan menyelamatkannya. saat banjir sudah mencapai atap rumah dan dia sedang duduk diatas atap rumah, sebuah perahu datang mengangkut beberapa orang pengungsi yang lain. mereka memanggil orang suci untuk bergabung dengan mereka, tapi dia berkata, 'tdak usah, aku mempunya iman bahwa Tuhan akan menyelamatkanku." jadi perahu it pergi. beberapa saat kemudian, perahu lain datang dan mengajak orang itu untuk naik juga, dan orang suci ini kembali menolak. setelah beberapa jam dan air mulai naik lebih tinggi daripada atap, sebuah helikopter datang untuk menyelamatkan orang suci ini, tapi dia kembali menolak dan berkata bahwa dia masih mempunya iman. tentu saja beberapa lama kemudian banjir menenggelamkannya dan dia pun menginggal dan naik ke surga. di surga, dia bertemu Santo Petrus dan dia bertanya, "santo petrus, saya sudah berdoa dan beriman kepada Tuhan, tapi kenapa dia tidak menyelamatkan saya?" Santo Petrus berkata, "lho, Tuhan kan sudah mengirimkan 2 perahu dan 1 helikopter!"

    okay, this is just a joke, k, no offense, i didn't mean disrespect to God, i just thought that the whole thing makes absolute sense. you need to try saving yourself when you're facing danger. the whole point of trusting God lies in the faith that your escape plan will suceed with God's will and power. that's what i think.

    By Blogger ekku, at  2:19 pm  

  • gomenasai.. the way i saw it was different lah yesterday... but last nite after talking to sbass i know i somehow misunderstood u..

    sorry banget for saying that k.. sbass also said about the precaution thing. so yeah i guess im in the wrong.. so sorry k...

    Han u also make sense lah... gues we n God gotta work together lah. Sometimes the things that we do is even the work of the holy spirit, without realising it. So yeah good point.. =)

    I guess u commit ur escape plan to Him and give it all back to Him lah. I just remembered this, the other time i went for the mission trip, we also keep putting all our plans back to God, cos no matter wat He knows wat's best for us. ANd yeah i guess u can give ur escape plan to God and if it is accordance to His Will, everything will be just perfectly fine...

    NO matter wat, i will still be praying for u and families and mine.. and many others indo chinese that have been jeopardised by the threat...

    By Blogger cmanling, at  8:27 pm  

  • a man once came to the prophet and said to him, "i left my camel outside and trust God to take care of it." To which the prophet replied, "Tie up your camel first and then trust God to take care of it."

    i guess trusting God and taking our own initiative sometimes seems to be the Yin and Yang of each other. however, i believe that they go in line with each other. crossing across a busy road and saying to oneself that he trust God to take care of him, i would call that suicide. you first have to take steps to carry out the solutions as best as you can within the humanly effort. as we are imperfect beings, we then trust God and His benevolence to aid us in our quest, for only He has the perfection.

    should things go wrong and screw up, then we trust that there is a reason why God bestowed failure upon us. this is where the lessons in Life comes and we learn to overcome our flaws. when things go our way, then it was the reward for our faith in Him and we learn to thank Him. thus bourne gratitude, which is the seed for more rewards in Life.

    Natalia, i am really sorry for the hardships, agony and misery the Muslims in your country have brought to you, your family, your society and fellow Christians. i can apologise till my throat is dry and my voice hoarse but it will not make any difference. the dead stay dead, those outraged stays traumatised.

    even my tears now cannot wash away the shame and atrocity that those i call my brothers have carried out. i know i can never understand the pain you or the chinese indo have went through. no words of condemnation would ever make up for those horrid crimes that have been carried out in the blatant lie that they called jihad. my God never taught us to rape women, kill children or commit genocide. my God taught us what most religions in the world does: love thy neighbour, respect those of other faiths and the way of the sword is of the last resort, only when the sword is first raised against you.

    however, human greed, bigotry and personal vendetta against Christianity and Judaism has distorted God's words. the blind followed and hearkened to the call and insanity ensured.

    i used to despise and hated these Muslims. they bring shame and their selfish actions brought about the domino effect of prejudice against innocent Muslims worldwide. being a Muslim will mean you will be scrutinised in the nations of the west and their allies. once upon their land, you will be watched at all times. wear the head gears and scarves and you will be deemed terrorists.

    however, it got me thinking one day. all these Muslims who follow blindly are idiots but what are the smart, informed Muslims doing? nothing. they sit on their ass and condemned the act, without doing anything else besides adding hot air and contribute to global warming. and ironically, i was one of them.

    there is a lack of education. there is a lack of trust and love. there is a lack of acceptance and reconcilation. this animousity had started perhaps even before the crusades and have went on for a thousand years. all because we are stupid enough to put our emotions before our minds and the use of logic. there is just too much fear. there is just too much resentment. there is just too much hatred.

    i was guilty of that fear, hatred and resentment. how many times have i been told that Christians and Jews seek to destroy Islam. maybe it is true, but i also know it is not the entire truth. because i met good people in my life who are Christians. people whom i count more than friends. people like you.

    thus i would gladly cast aside all these negativity. for as much as there are people from both camps who want to destroy each other, there are also others who wants to save and preserve. i believe that the difference will not come from massive education, preachings or what have you.

    i believe the difference will come when we make that difference within ourselves. when we learn to accept, forgive, love and have faith. for only thses sincere acts that comes from the human soul will have any real impact on others.

    i am learning not to look at every act by the Christians with a discerning eye. i am learning to accept the freedom of opinion that they have on Islam. i am learning to understand the message Christianity is delivering. so that i can understand, and from there accept, forgive for whatever wrongdoings that happened in the past and have faith that they will also do the same.

    i am not asking you to do the same for i believe everyone have their own freedom of choice. i am not trying to convince anyone for i believe in sharing and letting others form their own opinion.

    i am truly sorry again, Natalia. and i guess, i can see why you would want to go back all the more. i guess you should be with your family and i am sure you are smart enough to make the right decisions should the undesireable occurs. just take care of yourself and your family. should danger seems emminent, look for safety and if possible, come back to us where it's safe.

    otherwise, until you really go back, focus on your tasks at hand first, i.e. your exams. i think you are adding more stress on yourself by this matter. pray to God and keep faith and trust that whatever the outcome is, it's for the best. otherwise, take care Natalia.

    By Blogger D'Fau, at  3:07 am  

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