November 19, 2005

weekend finally...

itz another weekend!! == another week to my liberation!! == few more days to my papers :s....... well2.. u guys know, YESTERDAY WAS JUNICHI'S BDAE!!!! and ofcoz, few other people shared the happy day with jun ^_^ my fren, junwei who is in san diego, gret's mum and ofcoz, the wedding anniversary of david and susan, the people i knew from john liauw's church... okay2.. juz wanna wish all of them happie bdae!!!!!!!! n hapie aniv.. ^_^

yesterday is supposedly a 'good' day.. but nana said she had bad feeling about the paper... NVM nana!!! eat ur candy canes.. everything will be welll :p! haha.. hm.. okay.. juz an update... like u guys know, tuesday was my paper... er... i couldnt do.. well i did my best... but i dun tink it was easy... everyone *literally* said itz NOT tough.. *jarang2 loch mereka bilang bgituw O_o'* so.. yea.. i wonder wad the result would be... *padahal udah diajarin cogan huiq2*... hm.. for this matter, i'd like to thx all my frenz.. for giving me support, *especially helping me to forget it :p* and also to sbass for teaching me.. ^_^ moga2 the SR is correct agh.... *pray pray..* egh ofcoz.. my ex-classmate who had been willing to stay up to teach me... ^_^

after the paper, i received sms from the maid living upstairs.. the sms was about someone will be sms-ing me.. n that's her fren, alex.. so this alex apparently is my neighbour.. in #08-01.. O_O'! was beginning to think.. if i move out again.. wld my next neighbour be another alex? haha.. so.. he did msg me.. n we had a small talk.. he plays violin.. n he gave me his website.. n itz like 'WOWWW' itz professional violinist man O_o'!! *marlin was already itching to know him i guess..* hahaa... well this guy was kinda like SEAN... he speaks indo, loves indo, ventured in indo for quite long.. he was wondering why he never seen any indonesians in palm gardens ... *towew..* then i said 'even if u hav seen us, wld u know?' then he said 'should know.. coz indo girls hav different poise..' rheuiaweoriuhapreihrpaiurhapierua agreee?????? =p! *we are proud indoz O_o'* :p!

the upstairs maid came to our house for a chat for a while.. itz good that we know her a little better now.. ;p! after that, we were off for our xmas hunting!!!! hurhiwuhroairuhewar....... qkho n tony decided nt to come.... so me n marlin had our 'sun-lit' xmasTree photographs.. ^_^v from orchard, all the way to PS... yea man... :p! not a crazy picz tho.. but decent ones.. :p! when we were tired, we then went to our destination dinner place, the FOOD REPUBLIC at wisma.. it should have been beautiful place if only we got the right place... the one with the lights against the window glass.. but we didnt get that spot.. so yea.. make do.. O_o'! waited for hours for the twins to come.... *almost rushed hour-dinner.* everyone passing by us will definitely ask if they could sit there.. O_o'! well they finally came, hung2 brought along her boyfren, ian... during dinner, we didnt get the chance to be silence.. given the last time we met was .... *when agh?* yea.. we got a lot of things to talk about... =p! eniweiz.. hung2 looks good with ian.. n they're good for each other too.. so... let's expect a wedding invitation quite soon... 2-3 years?? :D

san2 wants to each gelare waffle.. *half-priced mah..* but when we went outside orchard, we couldnt help but take a few shots... the best one is at wisma! ^_^ ian took for the 4 of us.. n we all looked good eh? ^_^ too bad the star at the peak is cut off -_-'! quite hard to take that same spot again legh... O_o'! maybe tonight? ^_^v

then we got stuck at orchard mrt's spot.. *taking pic across to ck tang... then nana joined us.... she got her first candy canes!!! wakakaka so cute.. ^_^v then ian went a bit HIGH.. he wanted to take pic at the spot just in front of JW MARIOTT.. at that traffic light, where the word 'hitachi' is, i guess.. *how to get there ian O_O'* then again, he wanted to take pic at the centre of the road... *towew...* haha... eniweiz we finally settled on taking pic when we're crossing the road in order to get the wordings 'seasons' greetings'... we were v enthu at first.. when we posed for it... pedestrians looked at us, sneered at us for blocking their road.. n when they were all gone...... those cars stopping for the red light most probably laughing at us too..... wakakaka paiseh O_o'! eniweiz.. marlin was the photographer.. so she WANTS to be in the pic too.. so she ushered all of us to take pic at that place again.. this time ian was the photographer... he was really very HIGH o_O'! he shouted 'satuuu duaaa tiiiiiga...' then when we were about to move, he said 'eghh tunggu2.. 1x lagi.. 1.. 2... 3.... O_o'! then nana, hung2, san2 n me juz fled the place... *SUPER paiseh O_o* the 2 people left.. marlin n ian stayed to take more pics with the seasons' greetings *oh noooooo!!!* cover-face...

worse thing is.. my junior from TKS somehow saw us.. *hopefuly not at that seasons' greetings, but most probably YES he saw us there.. O_o'! he told eleta that he saw me.. *didnt saw him.. tho'* maybe i did.. but didnt know itz him... =p! *PAISEGHHHHHHH* but thrilling.. :p!

then nini n harry came... we didnt eat waffles in the end.. so we continued our huntings... ^_^ best ones is at ck tang!! i love the pics there!! v warm.. v cold.. v cool.. all are in their xmas tree!! i especially loved the ones that all of us took the pic.. *the ONLY* ones with all of us included in there.. ^_^ then finally went to paragon to take our last pics with xmas tree... doing all sorts of stupid things.. this n thats... with that gigantic green-red xmas tree.. =p

so.. next xmas tree hunting list : *TAKA!*, *SUNTEC CITY*, *MARINA SQUARE*, *RAFFLESS PLACE*, *TANGLIN - with the snow!!!!* *excited excited excited!!!*

my next paper is on wednesday.. then friday... so.. let's wait till then!! ^_^ n then we could wait no more... nana: yapz! gw jg ga mao nunggu ampe jumat!! rabu can be said my [liberation] too :p! hehehe.....

ow.... about the maid upstairs... she reccommend us to another indonesian living on 10th floor O_o'! geez.. never knew there are so many indons in my block... O_o"! n this girl, marlin knew her, she works for media corps in singapore.. DJ-ing or wadsoever.. :) she might be joining-venture with marlin looking after indo kids *homestay* she as guardian, marlin as tuition teacher... cool eh? ^_^

hm.. twins are going back tomorrow :'(! hopefuly they come to my house today... hopefuly they're coming back to sg to work.. 1-2 years is okay... just COME BACKKK!!! sobz2... v sad legh.. each year people would go.... last year, this timing was cota... this year gota be the twins? :'( no no no dun... :'(! hany also going back home -_______________-"! she wun be able to join us for the xmas party... huhuhuhu!!!!

gw koq ga nyambung gituw yagh nulisnya.. O_o...' well... my heart thoughts mind and soul are getting unstable lately... sometimes goes into pondering.. Y Y Y Y n Y? sometimes feeling like i want to just BE ALONE.. y dun everyone let me be alone... sometimes wondering if my frens are worth being my frenz.. or the other way round.. do they take me as FRIENDS? or will i ever be good enough for my frenz?? loadza things agh...

sometimes tinking ive been
taking advantage... been taken advantage..
taking for granted... been taken for granted..
faking the friendship.. been FAKED for the friendship...

itz a sucky feeling.. but tatz wad i was feeling nowadays.... when i read nana's HER WORLD.. about good girls and bad girls... i see myself in both O_o'! it says good girls treat friends conventionally... 'new friends are silver, old frenz are gold' .. yea.. i think frenz are gold... but bad girls 'when friends turn sour, she will find other friends..' yeapz.. tatz me too... but i cant be very heartless as to ditch my frenz.... no matter how i want to do it... -_-'! haiz... nvm.. i guess this is the usual mood swinx girls would have........................ tapi beneran bt bgt dech klu lagi mikirin gini.... O_o"....... nvm... im off to buy breakfast.. ^_^ tha..!!

2 Comments:

  • hmmm i tot i was the only who feels like that.. but sometimes, u just gotta let ur logic and sound mind affirm ur bad feeling or those insecurities.. gue sih truthfully, wonders a lot abt friendship, i will always think abt my actions, whether they were appreciated, whether my friends are really my friends, whether is it right for me to place such full trust? or the ultimate one, will they one day be able to hurt me? as in really hurt me.

    but then whenever i have all these doubts in me, i always assure myself, everyone is not the same. dont expect the same. everyone is not like me. how i feel, may not be how they feel to. learn to respect. certain actions done may not be that they are taking u for granted, taking advantage (this one i ponders a lot especially, trust me, it just makes u super duper bethe thinking abt it) anything that u think a good friend shouldnt have done.

    I guess u know u can always bring it up to Him juga sih. Sometimes, i think and look for His love instead when i feel these doubts in my friendships n stuff like that. Cos no matter what, u can always fall back to Him and truly, He is the truest friend u can ever find. N it always make me feel a whole lot better when i think abt Him.

    Just like u n me. Both of us are best friends. But we treat each other differently right? But doesnt mean that we dont sayang each other. Some of ur ways of reacting to things or answering things are not to my expectation. sometimes i do have times when i doubt abt being taken advantage or that im not that important, but my logic know that's not true. Logic will always remind me that everyone is not the same and that i can discard all those doubts away far far away. Evryone has their own way of doing things and i just have to be accustomed to it. I cant expect people to change for me. And i know i cant change myself wholly for them. But i know i can give them some leeway. SO yeah this is how i deal with it lah.. u can always try it. Hope it helps.. Jia yOu!!!!

    haiyah u all so nice after wed already quite free.. me leh.. only sat then can have fun i think.. sun mon back to mugging like siao!!!! arghghhghghghghgh...

    By Blogger cmanling, at  1:00 am  

  • eh sorry arh.. my first few sentence ttg logic and sound mind.. shouldnt affirm... hehehee.. should put away...

    By Blogger cmanling, at  1:01 am  

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