sunday..... ^_^

happy sunday! hehe... let's get down straight to the sermon... it was taken from 2Tim 1 : 1-14.. DO NOT BE ASHAMED... this passage is a letter from Paul to Timothy, while Paul was imprisoned.. Timothy was young but a gifted preacher... but Timothy was discouraged because trusting and following and serving Jesus is sometimes a sour experience... maybe because the society withdraws when they know u r a christian... or simply they TALK about u...

My preacher said that usually... we THINK of sooo many discouragements in life to give reasons to our discouragements in following Jesus.. but sometimes, most of the times, the greatest discouragement and disappointement is one person that u alwiz see in the bathroom mirror every morning.. urself... when we look back on how long we have been christians, how little progress we've made since then, how easy our faith is deterred.... WE are discouraged by ourselves...
~agreed!!! how easy i succumb to temptation.. how little progress ive made altho He's already provided me with loadza beautifully wonderful things... sometimes im juz disappointed.. discouraged.. at myself... y am i so ungrateful to Him....

however, there are encouragements that is.... :
1. to develop and use our gifts of service... we do have gifts... behind every gifts, there are ministry meant to exervise... we have to stir up our gifts and develop, do as much as you could do for the work of the Kingdom... practive -->develop --> train -->(+ve responsibility) serving to the maximum
~my gifts.. musical? influencial? how do i exercise them?? joining a church choir is so much difficult of a task O_o'

2. To have no shame .... on Jesus... imagine Timothy, shamed because Paul (his tutor) was imprissoned.. imagine when his mum's relatives, dining together... n they asked Tim.. 'so Tim wad r u doing now?' Tim answers : im a preacher... *sssssssiiiiinnnnngggg* silence.... tim's mum's side are all jewish.... they'll say 'u mean YOU preach that your GOD was cruficied?' Jewish dun believe that God the saviour would be cruficied.... or maybe when he goes to his father's side... a Greek, that are educated people, they'll be laughing at him... people on the street will talk about him becoz his TUTOR is in prison... O_o'
~ he quoted AGAIN this very scary verse from the bible 'whoever ashamed on me, I'll be ashamed of that person in front of my Father...' im not ashamed of you... i really look up to you coz u've done something awesome that no one no leader no president no prime minister no kings noONE in this world would ever do the same as you... and YOU of all people, did it for us... for me!! i understand this point very well coz i AM not ashamed tat im christian... im ashamed *sometimes* at myself that people do not even recognise me from my behaviour and attitude, that i, indeed, am a christian.....

3. To suffer for the gospel...
~ missionary?

4. To stick with God's message.. do not 'BEND' 'TWIST' or 'MILDEN' the christian message to gain accptance of others. that jesus is the only way and truth to eternal life...
~ hm.... HE is the way... He is the bridge of sinful humans to God... needs prove? wait till we die.. see who is the bridge to heaven...

in order to do those things, we need encouragement... these are the encouragement :
a. Spirit God gives... love, power, self-control...
b. The deeds and purpose of God... remind ourselves what He has done for us, saving us EVEN b4 we were born, b4 creation of the world... he has set the time...
c. An inspiring example.... 'i know whom i believe and THAT HE is able...'
d. The God we know......

yeaps.. tatz all... n then.. the choir sang this very beautiful song 'before the throne of God above'... maybe when i could d/l the song, i could share the songs.. ^_^ hm.. im kinda reminded of last week's SABTU SUNYI'S preaching... whether activities that i do is to console myself that at least..... im a christian... u know.. like going to church every sunday.. listening to hymns... the preacher was saying that sometimes christians DO behave like this in order to rub themselves and say 'hey.. ive done the minimum things of a christian...' to me, going church is a chore to me... ive alwiz regarded it as meeting God and to give thanks for the week that has past and listen to the message to be at least remembered for a week.... maybe now and then u'll get slapped by the words.. but yea... humans do need slappings.... i love to sing hymns.. REALLY... i enjoy hymns, praise n worship songs... the choir sings... u could feel God's presence...

as for the 'do not be ashamed' and 'i know whom i believe and that He is able..'... i personally believe in Him, because if it werent for Him, my life would have gone NOWHERE... u know wad i mean? others in this society would simply go somewhere wrong or NOWHERE at all.. but im not.. im directed by him.. He is able to make ur life simpler in His way.. i believe that if I dun hav such strong faith, i wouldnt even survive JC life.. last time i used to compare myself with my frenz... one of my frenz REALLY REALLY hardworking.. she did 1/2 her TYS at 1st year... n she did all her tutorials and all... but yea.. she was more stressed than i was when A level was looming while i was just doubling my effort to work harder.... i mean itz not that believing in Him is a shield to stressful life.. but really.. when u have someone trustable, much more powerful than anyone on earth, u know that He is the key of lives.. He is the master plan of all things, u'll feel save when u just let Him guide you... well.. His plan is not alwiz good.. ive got DEO for my CT.. tatz y i was included in that 2-6 o clock self-study slots of PJC... i was overconfident b4 my CT and yeaps.. He slapped me down juz at the right time that i was really FORCED to study everyday in that PJC canteen with no beds no air-con to lull me to sleep... ofcoz i was super unhappy those days.. but what good it does to me? my grades jumped at least 2 grades each..... :D maybe some of you SLAPPED down harder than i was... maybe you might think my story is nothing.. i agree.. my life, is quite simple actually.. but yea.. He has the masterplan.. no one can argue that... if He slapped u harder than anyone else, u've got 2 choices... wake up, do it well this time... or go somewhere else, byebye....

an addition point, maybe becoz bible is the only holy-book that i know eversince ive born, ive never questioned aniting about itz content... when it is written 'Jesus walked in the water, Jesus provided 5000 people with 5 breads and 2 fish...' i BELIEVE... i believe in miracle.. however, for new christians, they have so much more questions that i, myself found it hard to answer.. for eg, margaret, after watching the passion of the christ last year, she and i were ENTHU ENTHU reading our bibles each night wanted to read MORE about Jesus' sufferings and crucifixtion.. she asked.. 'nat.. u bliv Jesus preached to 5000 people?' DUH! then she continued 'but how? 5000 is not a small number... even now, for a 1000people, they'll use loudspeaker and mic all the hi-tech things.. but there wasnt any mic or wadsoever at that time rite..?? i said to myself 'NACH LOCHHH........................... ga tao *uh-oh...*gw sendiri ga perna kepikiran' really.. ive rili never tot of those questions... well i spent my holidays in bandung asking here n there... asked my baptism class tutor, asked my aunt-whom-is-an-elder... asked my mum asked here n there.. they all gave me different answers... my tutor said 'He made use of the landscape.. it IS said that he was preaching on a hill and that the winds would carry his voice.. but also, Jesus was known as a good preacher.. powerful voice...'.. acceptable :D haha well... the best answer i got was from aswin.. he said 'the bible didnt say that ALL 5000 could hear him properly.. they juz came becoz they know Jesus would be preaching and from their experience or rumour, Jesus is said to be a very good teacher.. so they came at least to see Him.. bagus klu kedengeran... klu ngga ya cma mu dtg liat Jesus....' make sense? it DOES make alot of sense to me u know... my mum also agreed that this is the best answer.... IF the bible says 'all 5000 could hear clearly... the truth of bible is questionable.. but it doesnt =D.. one thing solved,

last night, my cousin was online so late.. er.. early.. when i was juz about to go offline.. he told me he promised to finish reading the bible... he said he found difficulties understanding EVEN genesis, which to me, is like a story book.. u know.. it IS a story.... he asked me to open genesis 3:22... about Adam's fall................... why is it written that 'the man has now become like one of us, knowing good and evil.. He must not be allowed to reach out his hand and take also from the tree of life and eat, and live forever...' his question: why God doesnt want us to be like them?

is becoz we sinned, IF we eat the fruit of tree of life, we'd live forever in hell? well i duno O_o'... answers please?? or maybe God doesnt want addition to his angels troopz?? WHY??!!! well he's got more questions... O_o' n he said he ever asked them to a preacher long time ago (genesis is the first book of the bible,... so everytime people wants to commit reading, they'll begin with Genesis... n thus, he asked this book long time ago, and still couldnt find answer)... the preacher simply said 'loadza symbols used in Genesis'.... er... does that help? can i just say 'our minds would never understand God's mind.... true... but let's TRY to understand... when it is already written, we ought to understand them, right? after all bible is the source for us to know our Maker more.... yea... help out please.. suggestions would be welcomed..

eniwei.. i was juz reading straits times, that bloggings hav now become popular to put thoughts, give strengths to others... (well coincidently the blogs that they found were these people who got terminal illness, and trying to put their thoughts on internet... eventually, some other ill patients who stumbled on their page got revived and persevere on....) as for me... i hope this blog would make me find myself... my purpose.. my life... ^_^ <-- gaya bener ya... :p huehuehuehuhuehue